For the past 3 years I have been posting either here or on CaringBridge. I have posted things I think about, updates on my health and scripture that is meaningful to me. When diagnosed I wanted the fight and the outcome to be to the Glory of God. I've always believed it is the duty and priviledge of a Christian to share their faith not only through words, but with their life.
I am not perfect and I don't have it all figured out. But during my quiet time yesterday I read something that seemed to leap off the page at me. It was a passage out of book by Beth Moore. If you are not familiar with her studies, let me just say - they are awesome! She will pull the significant words from a scripture verse and give the Greek translation and it's meaning, which gives a deeper, better understanding of the Word. The following is how the Word came to life for me, I hope you get as much joy out of reading it as I did writing it.
"Consider it pure joy my brothers, when you face trials of many kinds because you know the testing of your faith develops perseverance". James 1:2
Definition of perseverance: "nerving up" or "heroic endurance".
Perseverance is not a passive thing. It is an action, a choice. James tells us that the testing of our faith develops perseverance. That does not mean that when our faith is tested, when we are going through trials we should run to a corner and cover our heads. We shouldn't cower, biding our time until the storm clouds depart. We should "nerve up", strap on our full armor of God and stand strong. A picture of Superman comes to mind. Standing strong, his feet planted firmly, hands on his hips and his chin held high.
I know during trials there are days that we feel like we can't go on. Perseverance is the furtherest thing from our mind. There are days I look for that corner to hide in, trying to wish away my disease. But then I will get a second wind, from a friend or a scripture verse that comes to mind. I take a deep breath, steady my feet and ask God to help me stand strong again. James 1:4 says perseverance must finish its work so you can be mature and complete, lacking in nothing. Wow, I must need a lot of work!
Psalm 34:18, "the Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit". So while our perseverance is being developed, we are not alone. God is right there with us, through the doubts, the fears and long, dark nights.
"Cast all your anxiety on him because He cares for you". 1 Peter 5:7
Some days are hard. but remember the victory is ours!